Hello Internet world!
Life has been a bit strange lately, I keep getting swept up by the storm of life and I often forget to sit back and reflect on life. So here I am, doing just that! But where to start? Well, perhaps for starters I can write about my life in general? That sounds about right, I think. My life has been a roller-coaster, that is the only way I can truly put it. It has been trying and straining, but I have taught myself to bend when life decides to pull me at all ends. I choose to bend, not to break. I used to talk about a lot of personal things on my blog but I think I am going to keep it to a minimum these days. It is great to write things down and to document every waking moment of my life, but it is hard to remember every tiny detail.
Lately I have been trying my hardest to center myself through my own version of yoga. I've been trying to slow down, I have always rushed things in my life that I never have time to enjoy the world around me. Ideals such as marriage and kids have always been one of the biggest wishes I have ever had in my entire life. I wished to have been married, living in a cute apartment over looking a quiet lake. Sipping hot cocoa on cold wintry nights while watching fireworks ignite the night sky. I always wished to become friends with some lovely princesses in the kingdom, and having a sweet husband to come home to every day with our furry little pup. I dream of telling my husband stories, the look in his eyes would be gleaming as he took in each word I'd say about my days.
But sometimes I feel as though I dream up silly things and that those dreams may have to be put on hold for someone else. I have yearned for so much since I turned twenty-one back in two thousand and ten. The years have suddenly slipped by me, and I have lost important people, but have gained new ones. I have been blessed to be given back my old life and a chance to reshape it, and to hopefully chase a new dream. Since my dream is unrealistic to some, maybe I will have a new dream that would actually come true.
I don't want anyone to ever give up on their dreams though. We are the only ones that can make our dreams come true. No one will do it for us. The same goes with who will make you happy, only you can make yourself happy. A man or woman cannot do that for you, buying a new car, getting a new home, getting married, having a baby...those things cannot make you happy. The only thing that can make you happy is you. You must always remember that.
I love each of you so dearly. Sleep well. xo
